Twilight Saga ramblings

While this is mainly rambling out of control, there may be a spoiler or two in the madness. Just warning you.

My attempt at self-control failed miserably. Tuesday, I polished off Twilight. Since I was reading a copy that contained the first chapter of New Moon, I figured, why not? Because it was midnight, that's why not. But I read anyway, going to bed around 1am. I finished New Moon Wednesday around 1am. I began Eclipse Thursday during my lunch break, and finished at 2am. Did I mention I work full-time? I am happy to be finished, but am eager for Breaking Dawn. I will be on vacation through August 10th, which gives my mom and sister a chance to read it so it's all mine when I get home.

So, my opinions...
Bella is insane, and I love her for it. The whole thing with Jacob is crazy. She doesn't want him. Yes, she loves him, she may even be in love with him, but it is not the same as with Edward. Jacob was there for her when she needed a friend. Feelings may have escalated with time, but he is not her true love. I still wonder if he actually imprinted on her or if it is just normal love (as normal as can get in the series, anyway). I've heard rumors that Jacob will die in Breaking Dawn. I don't really want that. I want him to imprint on someone else, to move on. But I'd rather have him die than continue to bother Bella. Maybe it's just because I've always preferred vampires to werewolves, but I love the grace and other-ness to the vamps. Werewolves are like a man and a pet in one. Jacob has matured a bit, but he is still very childish and annoying. During her pain from Edward's leaving and other displays of their love, I cried. (Yes, I am a crier anyway, but still...) With Jacob, I don't feel that connection. He's there to test Bella, to make her choose Edward. Jacob can offer a relatively normal life: growing old, spending time with family, and having a human husband most of the time. But to me, I haven't been reading about Bella's life. I've been reading Bella and Edward's love story...

I want Bella to stay with Edward. They should get married, say they're traveling around the world for a year or two while she adjusts to being a vampire. This would discourage any unwelcome visits and too-disappointed parents. Then she can go to college. Just a thought.

I have a sinking feeling that the Cullens will transform Bella, sparking a war with the werewolves due to breaking the treaty without boundaries. I do want Edward and Jacob to fight, with Edward victorious without killing Jacob. Then let's not forget the Volturi (sp?). They'll be back. While I feel for Bella being human, doing what she can, and wanting to do more (often being stopped from doing so by her more powerful friends), I want to see her transform. I want to see her skills and abilities. I want to see her be able to stand up to these beings on her own. I love Edward protecting her; I'm old fashioned like that. But I want her to be able to take care of herself.
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*sigh* 3 weeks.

I might have more to say later. Right now, it's all just a mess of thoughts and anxiousness for closure. There better be closure.